All my life my "need" and "should" switches have been turned on. I should go away to college. I should stay with him because we've been together for so long. I should get an Accounting degree because its practical. I need to just get a job at a bank in Florida, since I already have experience. I should want to have a social life like my sister's. I need to meet someone soon, because all of my friends have. I should travel the world before I settle down. I should want to do things in the evenings while I'm here in Korea. I need to be more social during the week, like a lot of my friends here.
But I don't want to.
So instead of feeling guilty or lazy, I'm going to enjoy myself and do what actually makes me happy. Of course, I enjoy dinner and drinks with my friends...but once, or sometimes twice, a week is enough for me.
It doesn't matter what country, or even continent, I'm in. When I get off work, I like to go home. I like to read, watch TV, and go to sleep early. Do I wish I had someone to come home to? Yes, but I also don't want to spend my evenings out possibly finding him when I could be at home in my PJs.
If I can't spend my evenings with Jessica, Rachael, Laurie, Ashlee, Hannah, my parents, Bobby, Alex, Jodi, Keara or whoever else I absolutely love hanging out with, then I don't want to be around anybody.
I rather enjoy spending my evenings watching American TV shows and movies and eating pizza. I figure, I'm getting enough culture during the day and on weekends. What's the harm in traveling back to the U.S. on weeknights?
So while some of my friends here are eating out every night, going bowling, playing soccer, going to Seoul, and whatever else, I'm content with staying in. Hell, even on the weekends, Laurie and I usually are chilling out in one of our apartment's by 8 or 9pm.
Like I've always told my Mom, I can't wait until I'm 40. I might finally fit in with the norm.
Well, would you look at the time? It's almost 7pm! Time for some more reading The Count of Monte Cristo and watching Friends! :)
I heart you. : )
ReplyDeleteI totally feel you... I find myself getting pretty burned out doing stuff during the week all the time. It gets to be a bit much. Even on Saturday (when you and Laurie failed to hang out with us!!! :( ) Alex, my friend and I were so tired from walking around, instead of drinking and hanging out until the wee hours of the night, we went to a DVDbang and went to bed. We all should not feel guilty for not being out and social all the time!!! Want my truth? During the week, the thing I look forward to most is sitting with Alex late at night, watching our fav. TV shows... and that's perfectly fine with me. :)
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